Oh God, two journals in two weeks, I'm so sorry. Anyways, this one may sound a bit weabo-like. Feel free to ignore it, I don't care. I just want to write it off somewhere.

SO. Where to start? I changed my username as you most likely noticed. I couldn't stand the 'Serafinahthedragon' anymore, the 'dragon' in it kinda freaked me out, it kinda produced the prejudice of me being a dragon artist only, which is not the case. I already had to make a second account since I can't seem to get rid of this image on this one. Also the name 'Serafinah' gives me the creeps. I was so proud of this name when I created Serah 3 years ago but now... It's too long, sounds kinda strange (at least to me) and most people spell it wrong LOL. I can't recall when the last time was I actually called Serah 'Serafinah'. I still like the name's meaning non the less. Long blah blah, sorry. Even though I hated that username it kinda hurt changing it. I mean it's been  my 'identity' for the 3 years I've been on this site now. But seeing the new name on top of my page is somewhat refreshing, I grew kinda tired of this account, I fought with the thought of deleting it so often. But I can't, something stops me. Probably all the good memories and the awesome people I met here. <3
ENOUGH OF THE USERNAME DRAMA AMG.

Whatelse. Oh, yeah. Inactivity. I'm still totally inactive on this account. Why? Because I've got hit by a problem many of you probably have/had as well- anatomy. It all started when I tried to draw realistic stuff and focused too much on the anatomy and the more I focused the worst it got. Now I'm in a vicious circle, I focus too much on it, that makes it get worse which makes me focus even harder, etc. Dragons are kinda the main victims. The blockage I had some time ago which lasted for a year, totally destroyed my style. I thought I found a new one, my own one but I was wrong. And now I caught myself forcing myself to get a new one. WORST IDEA, SERAH, WORST IDEA EVER. That plus anatomy creates a prefect self destruction bomb, duh. WHY BRAIN, WHY. I hope I'll be able to kick myself int he ass and get on the right path again.

And of course the final exams. It's my last year of school and the finals started Tuesday with Spanish. It went pretty well but Spanish is so easy, nothing compared to Maths and German. English would be easy as well, if my teacher wouldn't be such a mofo. ~Sakyora, I hate you for getting rif of her. :'I I kinda pray that the hospital will tell me to move in now so I can get away from all this crap fff. No such luck, probably. They called and wanted me to come a few weeks back but my mom said no because of the finals. But now I will take the next place that gets free, no matter what, I really need to go there. I kinda maybe can't stand this freaking psychosis anymore which gives me sleepless nights, makes me skip lessons and isolate me from the rest of the world. I never do anything  with other people, except for ~SuicideHollow every few months. The only person I do something regulary with is ~Meanira....via the internet. COME BACK ONLINE MOFO OUR MINECRAFT SERVER IS WAITING./shot I just HATE being with other people because of the psychosis I freak out when there are many people nearby, now you can probably imagine how much I love school and why I skip lessons sometimes. Okay, probably not, only ~Meanira can, I guess, since she's the only one here who knows what my psychosis is. LAWL. Why do I keep talking about that now asdfghjk.

Oh yes, new journal skin. Gatomon. Shut up, Digimon is fucking awesome, my childhood omg, my freaking childhood <3333

I better stop talking, I can just hardly think right now. It's super late and I'm tiiireddd. Sorry for all the typos and non-sense-sentences I most likely made. And I will do my best to not spam you with yet another journal within the next weeks,  or God knows how long I still will be here.
Have a nice weekend everyone. It's an order.